Ama-O

Today was a beautiful day. And I felt as though I could reach up to the sky and hug my father. Though I found my reach was too short... So I turned to the sun, and my mother's warm kisses graced my shoulders. But I still was in need of that hug from my father, perhaps I'll try tomorrow...

I was filled with excitement when I saw you waiting. Hoping you'd notice my attire, but all you commented on was that it was black and due to the weather's inclinations- simply implied that I was probably burning up. But I started burning up the minute I stepped inside your car...

 I wanted to kiss you. I wanted to hold your hand. I needed to feel you to make sure that you were still here.

Yet I held back. 

Excuse my behavior. 

Pardon my attitude.

Somedays the worst of me, gets the best of me. 

AND I push those closest to me away because...

I don't know, I just do. (still trying to figure that one out...)

Bare with me, I have a lot to learn...

I cracked under the pressure today, the weight of world finally got to me.

The clutter in my mind brought up old files labeled: THE PAST.  i Found myself on a trail I thought I'd already completed. back-tracking, when I preach about moving forward.

I was a hypocrite today. Shit, at least I admit when I'm in the wrong. (it's the first step)

I trust you.

If I didn't I wouldn't still be here.

So, this one is on me. Fucking up...

I try so hard to be perfect in your eyes, but today, I slipped.

"I’m not perfect, You’re not perfect,

This aint worth it,

You gotta know by now, I have good intentions,

But I got a temper,

Baby still remember, what we’re here to do."-Floetry

I never wanted you to see me at my worst. But you were going to eventually... and still you accept me.

eu tu amo por causa disso.

 

 

Everything is changing but you're the Truth.

& when I'm about to fall, somehow you're always waiting with your open arms to catch me... You're gonna save me from myself.